THERE IS NO GOD.

I can't even be nice about this anymore. Your "epic, beautiful, neverending" faith is all based off of selfishness. And unfortunately for you, the world is much bigger than outside of YOUR trivial life. So while you can fill pages upon pages about your love for a god that isn't listening, I can sum up my argument in one sentence:

It is generally accepted that we must assume things do not exist unless we have evidence that they do...even theists follow this rule most of the time; they don't believe in unicorns, even though they can't conclusively prove that no unicorns exist anywhere.

God is a unicorn. Awesome idea, but it's just that. An idea in a human's mind. Get over yourself and take a fucking class on evolution.